This means living according to Truth (and not just conducting intellectually stimulating discussions or theses on the mere idea of Truth).
In light of this, Rav Itamar Schwartz presents probing questions each person should ask him/herself.
Many of you have already answered at least some of these positively. You've already made certain powerful changes for the sake of Truth. (It's clear from your decisions & actions & yearnings.)
But it's rare that a person has already pondered all these questions.
It's rare that a person has already made all the changes necessary to fulfill the answers to these questions.
So here's an opportunity to do so if you haven't already.
Needless to say, I need to grapple with these questions just as much anyone else. We're in this together—at different levels and stages, but still together.
Note: Please note these questions form around the idea that you actually KNOW of a more truthful place, community, interpretation, etc. and NOT just that someone merely suggested their own "truth" according to their own subjective opinion...or that you kinda-sorta-maybe "think" so, or that you vaguely heard something was considered more truthful, or that you're still trying to figure it out (which is perfectly legit; how else can you know unless you think about it first?)...the questions are: "What if you KNOW"...what if you are in COMPLETE AGREEMENT with them"—what would you do then?
Here are the 4 questions:
1) If you are told a certain interpretation in Torah that is more truthful than your current understanding, would you admit to it and say that the other way of understanding is truer than yours?
Or would you feel bad that you have to give up your previous way of understanding what you learned?
2) If you were told that there is a certain beis midrash in which they learn Torah in a more truthful way, would you leave your current beis midrash and go there?
3) If you discover that there is a group of Jews in the world who live more truthfully than you do, would you give up your current lifestyle and change over to that way of life?
Would you be prepared to leave your way of life in Yiddishkeit if you would find out that it’s not as truthful as a different way of Yiddishkeit?
If you agree that they are closer to the truth than you are, would you be prepared to actually uproot yourself from your community and move to the community where there is a more truthful lifestyle?
Or would you say, “I don’t know. If I move, it won’t work out for my wife and children…” In other words, “I don’t really want to!” (On a deeper note, both the husband and wife both don’t want!)
If someone lives a truthful life, a really truthful life, that means he is not dependent on anything on this world. He is prepared to leave anything for the truth.
He is prepared to let go of this generation, to let go of this world, to let go of this time that we are in, and to exchange it for a more truthful level of existence.
4) If a person is offered the chance to leave behind his current life and instead enter into a different time, in which there will be a Beis HaMikdash and Moshiach, would he do it?
Or would he wish he could stay in his current time?
If he leads a yeshivah for 1000 bochurim and then Mashiach comes, is he ready to give up his position…?
https://bilvavi.net/english/tefillah-055-searching-truth